Just like everyone else..... my kids went back to school. All three boys were stoked to go to school. My 5th grader (what??? yep - last year of Elemetary School), 3rd grader (king of the upper playground & my Kindergartner (I bawled). I love all three & miss them while they are at school. But unlike all of your kids, my kids were getting tired of each other by the end of the summer. They needed school, friends & time to miss each other again.
The busy schedules have once again begun! Cub Scouts, Piano, Homework, School & Back to School Nights, Classroom Volunteering, etc. I had a bit of a melt down for approximately 4 wks. I even went so far as to have some labs run to check my thyroid & hormones. The labs came back normal. That's great but it just means I need better sleep, more exercise, healthier food, reduced stress & I actually need to take my vitamins & supplements. So.... I'm trying. I really cracked! I just don't know how else to say it. I'm so grateful for a supportive husband. I'm convinced after going through this past month with me that we'll definitely make it through menopause when it hits. I'm also thankful to my Mom for continually calling me to make sure I was okay every few days & helping me to take the step of getting to my doctor. My children are forgiving. They survived my irritable attitude, nagging & a few yelling moments that ended with me putting myself on "time out." I'm grateful for repentance & humility. Nothing is more humbling that apologizing to your kids for being wacked out. Lastly, my doctor. Not only is he a good friend but an excellent physician. So... if your wondering where my posts went or why I've absolutely sucked as a friend lately or why I've been over emotional, too bossy & extremely sensitive..... it's because I lost it for awhile. I didn't tell anyone because I didn't know how. But, things seem to be getting better little by little.
I'm running again. It's really helping. Reading my scriptures. Reading for bookclub again. Keeping up on the home & bills. Working on my bedroom & the extra room currently & enjoying my boys again.
Ahhh Back to School...
6 comments:
Cath,
Don't be too hard on yourself. You have had a lot on your plate for many years. It totally makes sense that you would snap at some point. I can't believe you survived for as long as you did without losing it. And if it happens again, which it might, you'll get through it, just like you did this time. Love you tons!
Steph
ditto to what steph said. Love you! I just think you are so amazing, loving and caring! Love you! Love you!
I wish I had known you were struggling. So glad you're feeling better and getting into a good schedule.
i cannot believe griff is in 5th grade! you are the best mom cath! i hope i can be as strong and amazing as you one day! love you!
Cath - I am just glad to know it happens to other people too. But maybe I'm not normal, because I seem to have these breakdowns more than others do. I'm pretty sure that God sends extra angels during those times. --- I sure love you Cath, and I am sure you know it is really part of growth, normal to experience, and part of being an amazing women! It's also fun to read about your fam - thanks for posting.
hi cath, really good to read your blog. i loved it that you are so honest about it. the big question as a mom is how can i be everything to everybody? one time, after michael was born, after getting up for the zillienth time in the night, i was so exhausted, i couldn't see how i could go on one more second. (looking back i realized that i gave up, actually gave it to my Heavenly Father) that's when i knew that it was God that does it, his power and Life living life through me...that I was loved. It was New Life for me. I didn't have to take it on by myself. With God I could do anything! That same year, I got strep throat so bad I got bells palsy. Sometimes I wouldn't listen to my spirit...so I would say yes to everything so my body said, stop! that was a huge experience for me to evaluate my life and simplify, realizing what was most important to me, simply, and do that. wow, that was a long reply,.... Cathy, I love you. It sounds like you came to a breaking point that caused you to stop, and say, wait! I am being angry...and that is not me. what is going on! sounds like you have recentered yourself. sure love you, nan
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